Laying it all out before I ruin it again.

To Whom It May Concern:

Please understand that ever since ‘that incident,’ (And I’m sure you know which one I speak about) my only motivation was one thing. Yes, I hurt many people along the way, including you, but I don’t regret trying to achieve my goal. What I do regret was that you had to be part of my casualties (but not the only, regretfully). I was tired of waiting for something to happen. I was tired of getting hurt by those who said they would never hurt me. But most of all, I was tired of crying about my situation and crying harder when it didn’t fix itself. My only motivation, as of lately, have been my own happiness. And though I felt I could have gone about it better, I didn’t. Instead, I treated you like a child that didn’t know any better than to just listen to me. I want to say now, yes, I care about you. However, it is not the kind of care/affection from which you so want from me. I used to be able to see such a clear picture of us together, that picture got so muddy…

I wanted to write this so that you couldn’t interrupt me, because I am truly sorry. I wish things had gone differently, but they didn’t. I know you think that this was some revenge plot orchestrated and motivated by my bitterness. No, this was a confused and scared girl, not sure who she should reach out to, and I’m soo, soo sorry I hurt you. I’m not asking for any forgiveness but I am asking that you take care of yourself.

Goodbye(For Now?)

-Goodolfun